Category: my post

I feel attacked

now, i know what you’re thinking

carp, why are you clearing out your ask box in the middle of the night?

well, i’ve kind of had an epiphany about tumblr: i’m only really active when i’m depressed.

i noticed i’d been using tumblr as a kind of escape from my real life whenever i was depressed or stressed out. i’d be really active for two-weeks or a couple months or whatever, and then essentially drop off the face of the earth once i started to feel better.

and that doesn’t mean i don’t love blogging here and talking to you guys about what i’m passionate about, it’s just an unhealthy form of obsession and escapism i’m trying to curb.

so for the tl;dr –

i probably won’t be super consistently active anymore just because i don’t want to have to rely on tumblr to feel like i have people who like me/care about me/make me happy. if anything, i’d want my music to do that.

sorry this is kind of a mess, just wanted to offer an explanation about my past/current weird activity. that doesn’t mean i’m going on hiatus or anything, it’s just that i’m mostly just queueing my posts now.

quick apologies for being so spotty with my activity. honestly, with how i usually am during the summer i tend to lose motivation for a lot of stuff i care about, even if i enjoy doing it like this blog.

but that’s something i’m definitely working on. it’s the year of our lord, 20gayteen, and the year of self improvement, which includes this

i literally only want to become a music teacher so i can say “-but this is only a theory….a music theory.”

why are percussionists so hot?

asking for a friend….

i think i’m going to regret this but…are there any composer fanfictions out their? i’m looking to read Cursed Literature

guys

*watching marching band drag themselves inside from the heat after hours of practicing on the field*

us, sfor some reason: god i wish orchestra had something like band camp

Romeo and Juliet but it’s section leaders from band and orchestra

me: man, i’m bored, i don’t have anything to do today

*glances over to my sheet music hiding under a pound of dust*

me: yeah i just really don’t know what to do